Hi, my name is Cindy Adams and this is my story:
We were a family of four. Married for 11 years with 2 daughters, 6 and 7 yrs. old. Life couldn't be better and I thanked God frequently for having a perfect life. I was working as a substitute teacher and felt very fortunate to have that schedule and have ample time with my family. My spouse and I had dreams of growing old together and remaining in Florida.
In the Spring of 1995, my dreams of raising a family with my husband and growing old with him were shattered. He went into the hospital with pneumonia and died 3 weeks later. Very sudden. And there I was, a 34 year old widow! I hated that word!!!!
So what did I do? I grieved. I had to work through my grief and accept the fact I was no longer married. Leaning on my closest friends to get me through each day became my new norm. I spent a lot of time traveling in my grief. Reuniting with family and friends that I hadn't seen for awhile helped to soften the blow. As I worked through my grief and pain, I came to realize I had to formulate new dreams and goals for my life.
I leaned on God for my comfort and peace while praying for His direction. I came to realize I couldn't do this alone. There were many foolish things I did while I wasn't in my right mind. There were decisions I had to make that were detrimental to my daughters' lives. I had to be sure I was doing the right thing for my family and constantly prayed for God's guidance and peace.
We lived in our home for 2 years, not making any big decisions. We then moved to PR and lived with my in-laws for a year so my daughters could really know their father's family. Moving back to FL, I passed on a marriage proposal and pursued a college degree. In 2000, I moved to GA to be closer to family and start a new life. Once my daughters were on their own, I remarried a wonderful man in 2009. In 2010, I graduated with a master's degree and got licensed in social work (LMSW).
Life is good again! But now I realize that all my relationships are temporary. Only God's love remains permanent!